Our Story

This is a story of three women that God has brought together. We are not necessarily likely friends, but through an interesting series of events, God got us here. We each have our own story and perspective that we want to share. This is something that we have been asked to do, not for informative reasons, but…

Assumptions

Isn’t it funny, how we are constantly making assumptions? Every morning, I make the following assumptions: After a shower, I will be clean. When I brush my teeth, the sugar bugs will be gone and I won’t get cavities. My clothes are clean and ready to wear. My kids will listen. Coffee will make the world a better place. Some…

Identity

Identity. Who we are. What we are. I have spent my life identifying as a white girl. A girl who goes to church. A girl who tries to be good. A girl who likes boys. That is what good girls do, right? They like boys. They grow up and marry a boy and have a family. That’s what I did.…

Isolated, But Not Alone

I have had a great amount of time alone lately. I am working on the COVID unit in my nursing home and because of that I am isolating here at home when I am not working. This gives me a lot of time to think and wonder and question and do what I can to not get stuck inside my…

How COVID Saved my Life

How a global pandemic saved my life. Wait, what? Yes. COVID-19 in all its restrictions, isolation, and awfulness has saved my life. As many of you know, I battle depression. And I’m not talking I feel a little blue, so I’m going to lay in bed today depression; I’m talking the I can’t go on another day so I’m going…

Moving on; the Loss we Never Expect

Today marks the last day at a job I have done for almost ten years. A job I had never expected to be called to do. And I was kinda good at it too. But now, with a new chapter beginning in my life, I finally gave in and closed that last door in order to walk through the new…

Fighting the Fight

I wanted to take a minute and talk about COVID. We all have our own opinions and thoughts on this and that’s okay. I just want to share with you what it’s like to be on the frontlines of this battle. I want you to know that it isn’t a joke. I know that there are many, many other diseases…

Let’s Talk

I’m just getting back to “real” life after another lengthy stay in the hospital. It’s funny, because my reaction to being in the hospital is embarrassment and shame. Why in the world is that?! Is there something wrong with being sick and needing extra care? No! But despite my talk about depression being and illness, I still feel like I…

Letting Go

Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes I am asked to let go of something that I was so sure was the right thing for me. And it hurts. I am learning that God has a plan for me and that I am not always going to see what that plan is, rather He is asking me to trust and obey for one…

Breath of Privilege

I don’t even know how to form the words around what I am feeling right now. I sat down, wanting to talk about the news this past week. But then reality hit me. The news this past week isn’t something new. It isn’t even something different. It is the same thing that has been happening since long before I was…

Realness

*Trigger warning. This post is raw and deals with thoughts and feelings that could be triggering to some. Please be aware when reading and reach out for help if you are feeling vulnerable. Stupid. Worthless. Irrelevant. That is what you are. No one wants you. You should have never been born. Your friends are not your friends. No one loves…