Our Story

This is a story of three women that God has brought together. We are not necessarily likely friends, but through an interesting series of events, God got us here. We each have our own story and perspective that we want to share. This is something that we have been asked to do, not for informative reasons, but…

Here I am

Here I am. Fighting once again to get to that place of, “okay”. But what is, okay?  I don’t even know if I am aware of what exactly “okay” is. I’ve been struggling for what seems like forever, with dark thoughts and I don’t like the heaviness that comes with these thoughts. It weighs on me and drags me down, but…

And The You Fell

Have you ever fought so hard, that you just couldn’t fight anymore? I’m talking about the mental fight to keep pushing on and to keep putting one foot in front of the other, even when you don’t think you have it in you. I have been in that position more times than I care to remember. So many times, I…

Sometimes Things are Hard

Sometimes things are hard. We have all experienced hard things in life; that is just the nature of being alive. I have recently been on the receiving end of some of life’s hard things and I have to say, it took the wind out of my sails for a little bit. I had an unexpected shift in roles at work…

I’m Okay

I’m okay. How often do we use this phrase to answer the inquiry of a friend or to reassure our own mind? I’m okay. But what is okay? And are we really, okay? Or is this simply our automatic response. Do we say, “I’m okay” because it’s easier and less complicated than telling the truth? I’ve learned that it no…

Assumptions

Isn’t it funny, how we are constantly making assumptions? Every morning, I make the following assumptions: After a shower, I will be clean. When I brush my teeth, the sugar bugs will be gone and I won’t get cavities. My clothes are clean and ready to wear. My kids will listen. Coffee will make the world a better place. Some…

Identity

Identity. Who we are. What we are. I have spent my life identifying as a white girl. A girl who goes to church. A girl who tries to be good. A girl who likes boys. That is what good girls do, right? They like boys. They grow up and marry a boy and have a family. That’s what I did.…

Isolated, But Not Alone

I have had a great amount of time alone lately. I am working on the COVID unit in my nursing home and because of that I am isolating here at home when I am not working. This gives me a lot of time to think and wonder and question and do what I can to not get stuck inside my…

How COVID Saved my Life

How a global pandemic saved my life. Wait, what? Yes. COVID-19 in all its restrictions, isolation, and awfulness has saved my life. As many of you know, I battle depression. And I’m not talking I feel a little blue, so I’m going to lay in bed today depression; I’m talking the I can’t go on another day so I’m going…

Moving on; the Loss we Never Expect

Today marks the last day at a job I have done for almost ten years. A job I had never expected to be called to do. And I was kinda good at it too. But now, with a new chapter beginning in my life, I finally gave in and closed that last door in order to walk through the new…

Fighting the Fight

I wanted to take a minute and talk about COVID. We all have our own opinions and thoughts on this and that’s okay. I just want to share with you what it’s like to be on the frontlines of this battle. I want you to know that it isn’t a joke. I know that there are many, many other diseases…