I am not a super patient person, just ask my kids in the morning when I’ve asked them to get their insane amounts of winter gear on and get their butts out the door. Seriously though, I am in a period of waiting right now and God is revealing to me just how poorly I handle it. I think it partially goes back to the desire to be in control. I like to know what is going to happen, not just today, but for the next few months. But, I am in a season where God is asking me to trust Him for each step, without revealing the bigger picture to me.
Slow down, take time, Breath in He said
He’d reveal what’s to come, The thoughts in His mind
Always higher than mine, He’ll reveal all to come
He promises to reveal what is to come, but He doesn’t say that He will reveal it all at once. The last year has been a long, sometimes torturous journey of waiting and setbacks. I have “the perfect plan” of how I think things should go. I have a vision that I firmly believe is from God. It is a vision of my future and a vision that requires me to dream big and have faith. The problem is that I want that dream to unfold in my timeline and in the way I think it should happen. But His thoughts and His plans are higher and bigger than mine.
Within your heart you can make plans for your future, but the Lord chooses the steps you take to get there.
Proverbs 16:9 TPT
I have relied on my own wisdom and my own sense of timing far too often. When I have tried to control what path my life should take, it has ended in hurt and setback. It is in this current season of waiting and trusting that has really opened my eyes to how badly I want to do things my way and then ask God to bless me on my path. Why is that? Why is it so hard to sit and wait? Why do I struggle to quiet my heart and listen to the whisper of my Father who promises that He has a plan for me?
Take courage my heart, Stay steadfast my soul
He’s in the waiting, He’s in the waiting
Hold onto your hope, As your triumph unfolds
He’s never failing, He’s never failing
He sees the bigger picture. I only see the small plans that I think will be best. He has bigger dreams for me than I can fathom, but they will unfold on His timeline, not mine. His patience is incredible. I pout. I sulk. I yell. I whine. And He loves me. I fight. I scream. I judge. I question. And He waits. I don’t like this season, but I am learning to sit, to breathe, to trust. I want to see what’s coming, but I am learning to trust the One who is directing my path. I want all the answers, but I am learning to listen in the dark, in the fog, to listen for His voice.
Sing praise my soul, Find strength in joy
Let His Words lead you on, Do not forget His great faithfulness
He’ll finish all He’s begun
He will finish His work in me. I will see my dreams and vision come to life, if I trust His timing. He will show me the way, but He may choose to only reveal one step at a time. He will take all of the pain, all of the tears, all of the loss, all of the shame, and use it to lift others out of their dark place. He will take the unknowns and turn them into a story. I am a daughter of the King and He will finish all that He has started in me.
The above lyrics are written by: Kristine DiMarco, Jeremy Riddle, and Joel Taylor for Bethel Music (2016) “Take Courage”