Category: Grief

It’s Okay to…

Christmas is for family. It’s for celebration, laughter, visiting friends, going to parties, church services, all around happiness and feelings of inclusion and togetherness. Right? Right. Not for everyone. This year marks the second Christmas without your laughter, your silliness, late night crib games, teasing, and countless other special memories (read: gaping holes) left behind. Whoever said the first year…

Rocks in the River

  I was on Facebook today and read a friend’s post. It was about her dad and how much the grief still hurts after so many years. I wanted to respond to her. I wanted to say something like ‘I know’ or ‘it doesn’t matter how long, it always sucks’. But I couldn’t. I couldn’t even bring myself to put…

18 Months

It has been 18 months since I heard my father’s voice. 18 months since he yelled at sports on television. Eighteen months since he drew his last breath. Eighteen months since I have let myself feel the pain of that loss. I was a daddy’s girl my whole life up until that point, and I don’t know how to behave…