Category: Living with Depression

Finding Rainbows

How full is your glass? Are you a half empty or a half full kind of person? I have always been a glass half empty person. I used to joke that I was intended to be a pessimist. I was born on the Day of the Dead, I am a Wednesday’s child (full of woe), and my name means “dark”. …

Hello Darkness My Old Friend

Dark. Heavy. Drowning. I don’t know if it’s the change in season or if it is all the chaos in my life at the moment, but darkness has become my constant companion of late. Some days I feel like I am watching actors on a stage; like I can’t actually engage with anyone. I am going through the motions of…

Constant Work in Progress

      I have put in a lifetime of work accepting myself. It has been a constant battle with my own negative self-talk: you’re a fraud, you’ll never be good enough, you don’t belong here, you’re worthless, and so on.  I have only really been good at replacing those lies with God’s truth in the last few years by…

Surface Tension

I have often felt lately, that I am a cup that is filled to full. You know when the liquid threatens to spill over and all that is preventing the overflow is surface tension? But then, the next drop hits the surface and everything begins to spill out. This has been my life lately. I have allowed my cup to…

Blaze of Light in Every Word

Photo credit: David Gainforth There are a lot of perks in being the hyper kid. When your mind never shuts off, there are some amazing things that one can accomplish. I work very well under the pressure of a deadline. I can operate two or three steps ahead. But with all of those perks, there are some not so great…

It’s a Cold and it’s a Broken Hallelujah

The above image resonates with how I view living with depression. When you are in the midst of darkness and unsure of how to reach out or even find help… it can feel like you are drowning. Worse, drowning while others are oblivious to your storm. Mental struggles are not always noticeable on the outside: invisible pain. There are depths…