I have hope in the fact that God drew me to the places I would find rest. That I could find healing from all of my mess. I abandoned faith, but my heart keeps pulling me back.
Praising in the Darkness
I went to church yesterday. Except this time, I sat in the back. I wasn’t feeling much like praising and worshipping through the music. In fact, I didn’t even want to be there at all. I had a rough sleep and a hard session with the kids over the use of the word “fat”. They used it as a weapon against…
In Case of Emergency
There is always hope. That statement seems trivial in our darkest places, but it is the truth. The nature of the mental illness beast is that it robs us of our sight. Our ability to see hope. Anxiety steals tomorrow’s joy, depression blinds us with our shame and despair. So many different beasts affect how we see things. But there…
I See You
“I see you.” Simple words. It was these simple words, whispered to me in the midst of crisis, which breathed life into my darkness. I do not often clearly hear from God. In fact I don’t think I can remember the last time I heard Him speak to me. I wasn’t supposed to be at church on Saturday night, but…
Blaze of Light in Every Word
Photo credit: David Gainforth There are a lot of perks in being the hyper kid. When your mind never shuts off, there are some amazing things that one can accomplish. I work very well under the pressure of a deadline. I can operate two or three steps ahead. But with all of those perks, there are some not so great…
It’s a Cold and it’s a Broken Hallelujah
The above image resonates with how I view living with depression. When you are in the midst of darkness and unsure of how to reach out or even find help… it can feel like you are drowning. Worse, drowning while others are oblivious to your storm. Mental struggles are not always noticeable on the outside: invisible pain. There are depths…
Inside My Head
Depression. How many of us have made the statement at one time or another, “I’m so depressed”? I think it is fair to say that the majority of us have used the phrase at some point. But what is it like to live inside the body and mind of someone who actually experiences clinical depression? What is a day…
